Last week, I was listening to the podcast of Robert Abdul Hay Darr talk at the last Baraka retreat. It was so coincidentally inline with my line of thoughts at the time. Prior to that I was talking with my dear Sh.K. about love and the need for attention from the lover. What was the reason for this need for attention? Was it just or wining of a longing heart?
I was then thinking about what makes you feel drawn and affectionate toward another person, deeply affectionate I mean, not a fleeting crush. It dawned at me that it was hidden in how that person realizes you. You know you are unique with all your capacities and flaws. But what makes you feel driven to the love of a person is how that person wants to know you more, all your capacities, all your flaws. How he looks at you dearly, how he listens to you attentively, how he wants to know more about you and your day and your experiences and your thoughts and your feelings, how he cares about how you feel, why you chose a certain word, even what you wear. He wants to know you in order to make you happy; in order to be able to claim part of your feelings. This is love. You have no choice but to be driven to this person deeply; this drive is really beyond the comprehension of logic, it is all heart.
God said, "I was a treasure, I oh so wanted to be known". And so there were lovers of God.
Now, that is true love. Yet, it is the experience of this earthly love that makes you realize that true love through example and experience. So, may be being in love and feeling loved is actually equal to paying attention and being attended to. May be it is actually very just to demand this attention of a real lover.
I was smiling listening to the podcast when this saying by God got recited and this theory got validated remotely. I love it when the universe rhymes with your thoughts! Now, the universe is paying attention, right?