In one shelf I sorted out my diaries; the very first notebook started at the Perisan New Year's Eve, 1990, 24 years ago! I had used my most favorite pen and exercised my best penmanship. I had drawn some pictures in the background. I was really into writing my first note.
I skimmed through the first couple of notes but I didn't dare reading the rest. I knew I would find the unfamiliar me who lived in the past and I would miss that 'me'. I better remember this when A and m are going to act strange in a few years. In another notebook I found some of my poems. How proud I was for each one of them! How in love, in doubt, disappointed I felt in some!
I found some notes written in a secret language the keys to which I do not know anymore.
I found occasional notes written by friends who should have been with me at the time.
Notes from elementary school to high school to university to getting married to emigrating to Toronto to finding new friends to finishing school to landing my first job to getting pregnant to all the emotions of motherhood to yesterday when I wrote down yet another dream.
From that big house in Khane Eafahan to this house in the edge of San Jose; Who would have ever guessed?
A new Nowrouz is ahead of us once more. A new beginning enshala, if there were more days in my life. And more notes to be written and never read unless I gather the courage one day.