Last night, I got to attend one of my spiritual circles I had not been able to attend since October and I learned something really valuable from my companions on The Path.
I was struggling how to "live" The Path of servant-hood, worship, and total surrender living in the 20th century era in the silicon valley of all places with all the egos flying around. I felt that it could be easy To Be and To Serve, and To Pray while living in a secluded garden and meeting only people of The Path, eating from fresh fruit of the garden, and witnessing the beauty of God in everything and everyone around me. I had not chosen that life. But rather this.
In the midst of this battle, I got reminded last night that The Path is not to reach a state of perfection but rather a movement toward it. That every effort matters, even just to recognize one's nafs, one's ego, in a situation. There are beauties in the ego; this life is to be lived and to live, ego is needed. When among people, it matters to try to recognize the Face of God. When among egos, may be it matters to let the heart decide even if the ego acts.
"The star shows the way across desert sands and at sea
fix your eyes on the Star, for he is the one to be followed
Keep your eye on his face
don't stir up dust with discussions and arguments
you'll just veil the Star with that dust
The witnessing eye is better than the stumbling tongue
Be silent so he may speak who calms the dust--
he whose garment is Divine inspiration."
Mathnwi VI: 2641-2647
Translated by Kabir Helminski