Saturday, May 1, 2010

Confession

Never thought I would surrender to life but I am surrendering!

Never thought I would not like to leave the room as I dreaded the reality of what was awaiting me behind the door.

Never thought a sweet remark could be so heart crushingly sad, a heart crushingly sad word could be so unimportant, an unimportant note could be so heart filling, a heart filling smile could be so ignored, an ignored touch could be so wanted, a wanted praise could be so denied, a denied cry could be so old, an old smell could be so pleasant, a pleasant look could be so hard.

10 comments:

roya said...

Beautiful!

midnight/... said...

:) nice of you Roya joon!

maman said...

absolutely right

Somayeh said...

I've made similar confessions to myself as well, so I can totally relate to your post. I've realized our days are numbered (from the day we are born indeed) and we can only accomplish so many things ... There are quite a few things I've left for my next life (no hope that my non-existing son would take care of them!)

Unknow said...

So beautiful and impressive!

midnight/... said...

Thanks maman for confirming. I am overdue reading your blog but soon enshaalaa.

midnight/... said...

Somayeh joon your positive spirit has always been admired and you know that. I think you have already accomplished a lot and will still do, but yes, the days are indeed numbered. And the mind indeed has a limit I still dont want to totally acknowledge. But c'est la vie and I like it :)

midnight/... said...

Thanks for impressive comment unknown! So heart warming thanks!

Azi said...

You write beautifully girl!
Just a quick note though...
Your dream is yours! Dreams are not heritable! You can't follow your parents' dreams, nor your son would cherish yours!
Let go of the destructive, stagnating cliche of our mothers that: "az maa ke gozasht, enshaalaa vaase bache hamoon"!!!

midnight/... said...

:) So true Azi joon and I am not sure if I ever believed that I wanted A to pick up what I left off. I will be happy though if I see him accomplishing them, and even happier if I achieve my dream myself still ;)